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Mimzy  

Hacking up a lung and other sleep dep dillusions.

Mar 6, 2011
Got some meds to stop the coughing and ease the congestion...it holds back the worst of it - I still sound like a 30 yr smoker at times.
My lungs are about to file an abuse complaint and my brain is so fed up with the noise & tremors that I'm afraid it might decide to move out.

The constant rattling in my chest sounds like a family of rattlesnakes has moved in. Either that or it's a death rattle and I'm about to buy the farm...could explain the vultures that keep circling... It may not be so bad...I always wanted to have a farm of my own...lol

Things can't be all bad, my funny bone hasn't quit yet. I've really been missing my lazy boy chair...I could sleep so good in that chair when I was sick...
Can't really lay down for long, coughing wakes me up, but staying up don't work since I'm still hacking and then falling asleep sitting up..I can snatch some short naps in here and there...but it just isn't the same..as a nice restful trip to oblivion..

Well, just thought I would drop in and let you know that I haven't kicked the bucket yet - no need to send daisies or lilies. With the pollen outside I'm hiding inside - I've got enough coughing issues, I don't need sneezing added to the bodily reactions that plague me daily.

Guard your health, you don't often realize how important something is till it's gone. I'm glad that this misery is only temporary...I can't wait to get back to being me again.

Take care and well wishes to all...
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cfeldscher   in reply to recover   on

Does anyone ever get better?

Aug 7, 2010

My girlfriend relaspesed after having 18mon.Ihave 2yrs.We can get better it's a slow process we have to change our behaviors.It comes with pratice we have to make mistakes in order too learn from them.

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annie/syracuseny  

help for a relapsed friend

Jul 17, 2010

I have a good friend that relapsed recently and was drunk but played it off like she was not. I need to let her know I know she was drunk, but how do I do this? I need to let her know I LOVE HER  and want to help her.

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annie/syracuseny  

About annie/syracuseny

Jul 17, 2010

i know a little bit about a lot of things. I am looking for answers and willing to give them as well..

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Kathy44  

Christians in Recovery

Jul 14, 2010

In this time of recession and foreclosures on homes and job losses, the number of people surfing the internet looking for help is growing fast and http://www.christians-in-recovery.org is getting 2500 hits a day. Many people want to get help with their depression, or addiction, but because they are afraid or ashamed of negative feedback if they go public, they are seeking an online community where they can be anonymous. CIR is the largest most comprehensice recovery site on the web.

Would you please help make a difference in A life by making a donation at https://christians-in-recovery.org/secure/donate.html

thank you

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pawneestubblethumb  

About pawneestubblethumb

Jul 5, 2010
I am a mommy, homeless, well, not so homeless now.. was living in motels from the day after christmas until may, some friends took me into their not so clean room in a boarding house until finally my brother and sister-in-law came and got me and brought me to their house, temporarily until I get my own place.. with a focus on TEMPORARY.. but this is great here, it's beautiful. I've been addicted to heroin for the last two years, I've almost died, lost my arm and my leg.. I'm finally getting some help and I've been clean 11 days.. the longest time for me yet! I want to build a life for my family, I want to have a normal life.. desperately want a normal life, just a simple happy life for my son. Looking to go to school in the fall for a paralegal program.. lets see what happens
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momonamission  

BABYSTEPS LEAD TO HUGE ACCOMPLISHMENTS.

Feb 23, 2010
I've been editing this page and rewriting it for a few months now, trying to find the right words to explain my sitation without sounding like someone that just wants a hand out.  After realizing my life is still is just passing me by with each day ending as depressing as it began for me. Let me quickly tell you a little about myself and some of the accomplishments I've made over the last 4 years.  I'm a single mother of 2 gorgeous girls.  They truely are what has kept me going and given me the strength to wake up each day and take that baby step toward my next goal.  They are ages 3 and 10.  When I became pregnant with my 3 year old, I quickly realized how fast my life had spiraled out of control and that if I didn't move home (parents) to make some major life changes I was going to end up losing my children and possible eventually myself. My Mom and Dad welcomed us with open arms and at first things were great! At least until my addiction to prescription pills got out of hand.  I put them through so much and I suppose I can't blame them for the resentment they still feel toward me even after being sober for 3 years now. Well it will be 3 years in 2 months but you get my point ;)  After I became sober I quickly realized that I had some major underlying problems.   I was trying to self medicate to ease the pain. I was really scarred from a physically abusive relationship with my children's father. I was with him for 7 long and painful years. It finally came to an end when I ended up in the hospital for broken ribs and several life threatening injuries from the beating I recieved while he was drunk on a rampage.  Thank God my parents let us go home. I've been here since and our relationship has gone from tolerating each other to emationally abusive. There have been a few times that it's gotten physical.  The hatred I saw in my fathers eyes before he pushed me down to the ground brought up so many HORRIBLE memories.  I feel stuck and my depression is really taking its toll on me. I do my best to be a good mother and no matter whatI do I'm always wrong in parents eyes.  They degrade me in front of my girls and tell them how worthless I was and that they shouldn't listen to someone that is a "druggy". I could go on but you get the point. I need out and it feels hopeless. I have no car, no job because I live in the country and without a car I can't get to school or find a career. I've quickly gone from being in a physically abusive relationship but working 3 jobs and feeling like a decent human being to what my parents refer to as their druggy daughter they can't get rid of. My mother has always resented me from the time I was a child and honestly never liked me. I'm finding it so hard to be honest here because I really do love my parents and the thought of leaving here scares me. I just feel like a child and I'm a very mature, independent (believe it or not ;) woman who is stuck in a horribly scary situation with no hope to get out. I'm seeking anyone that can guide me to any kind of help or advice on how to start over with nothing and no help. I'm ready emotionally, and being sober 3 years even through this I know I won't have an issue continuing it. I am no longer a smoker and actually have been a very clean and organized person for over a year now. (If you knew me before, I was just depressed and it showed all around me :( I got my GED a month after getting sober and was so excited to start college but without a car I was just out of luck.  I know I'm rambling but you get my point :)  

   If I found someone who could take me under their wing I know I would be a successful single mother working as many hours as it takes to give my girls the life I know they deserve.  I know my parents will be there for them and unfortunately they can't forgive my past and move forward. It's just to hard for them and honestly with what I put them through I don't blame them. I just wish I could do something to show them I'm a better person with values and morals now. I miss the feeling of having two parents who love me. I feel like I have no one.  Honestly I don't have anyone but my girls and each day that passes I my parents try to pull them farther and farther from me emotionally. 

 I just feel like I have so much to offer and no one to share it with. I like to think I'm pretty smart, very creative and LOVE to draw, graphic design and anything with computers are what I do when I'm shut in my room escaping reality. It's time I reach out. I know there has to be someone or something out there willing to give me a hand up but not a hand out. I'm ready and I believe my actions the last few years show that I'm not just talking the talk but ready to walk the walk. 
 
I am actually suffering form a broken leg right from taking a fall while tripping over a toy while doing housework.  Being the stubborn woman I am and not to mention being that girl that always cried wolf in my past I didn't make it to the hospital for 3 days. I was hopping and crawling around like a nut until my father finally insisted I go to the ER. I happily obliged and to my surprise, I was hopping out with a cast on and scheduled to see an ortho surgeon 2 days later.  He quickly scheduled me for surgery the next morning at 12 pm (sidenote: 12 pm?? what happened to morning surgery?? I was sooooo hungry after fasting since midnight!! :D) It happend so fast that I almost didn't have time to realize how much this was going to change my life.  I went into surgery and had 2 plates and several screws put in 3 weeks before Christmas. It was so emotionally painful on top of physically painful for me after surgery. I have been on 800 mg Ibuprofin ever since and I truely believe God must have been giving me the strength to fight my pain without even the thought of taking something that would put my sobriety in jeapardy. It's now January 4th, 2010 and while I'm hopping on crutches in my hot pink cast, I'm ALIVE! I know there is something out there God has put me here to do and I intend on breaking through all my roadblocks until I find it. This broken leg has actually been a blessing in disguise because it snapped me back into reality. I had sunk into such a depression after I realized that my actions ultimately lost me two of the people I was trying so hard to make proud of me. It's so confusing because I feel like I've come so far and to stop now would be a shame. My parents beg to differ. They would say that I'm worse now than I have ever been. When I cry, which is a lot lately my mother tells me that I chose to be a single mother and put myself in this situation so stop martyring and start changing and do things the right way!  I just wish I knew what the right way is. I point out all of my accomplishments and even remind them that I have CHANGED through actions like going above and beyond with housework (even with my cast on, Ive learned to vaccum, and kept the entire house with the exception of their room (which they keep locked at all times STILL) spotless. My mom just insists that I owe her so much more and that a clean house or a mopped floor isn't going to make up for the years of misery I've put her through. 

Just in case you have skipped my long drawn out story to this  part I'd like to quickly list my accomplishments the last few years. I really cant believe how much I have accomplished without the support of family or friends. I can honestly say I've done it alone. I successfully completed GED classes & passed my test with flying colors! YAY!, I've been able to stay drama free (which was a huge issue of mine when I was taking pills) and through the grace of God I've been sober for 3 years (well technically it's 3 years in 2 months but who's counting other than ME!). I am the room mother for my daughters class and PTO Mom, I also coach cheerleading and softball.  My grandmother took a fall and broke her hip 2 years ago. This blessing in disguise gave me a feeling of accomplishment and gave me the opporunity to be there for her.  I basicially took care of her day and night with no help from the other family. It's amazing how people distance themselves in crisis.  I've gone from completely disorganized to clean and clutter free.  Ive quit smoking thanks to my handy little e-cigarette.  If you dont know what that is please ask me. I have helped my grandmother, 3 uncles and brother all quit smoking with this genius invention.  I'm not lying. Its that amazing and I cant believe its not more popular. I also was able to get my drivers license back after 5 years. I spent numerous hours in class again and saved every penny to afford the insurance. It was such a wonderful feeling even if I didnt have a car. They don't make it easy to get them back thats for sure. I could write all my little baby steps Ive taken but I think you get the point with my bigger accomplishments. My biggest one though has definately been finding God.  Hes given me the power and strength to fight for the my children and I deserve.  I have the motivation I once lacked again!  Thank you for reading my story.

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Sister Recovery  

About Sister Recovery

Nov 28, 2009

My name is Elizabeth De La Rosa and I am interested in starting a sober living home for recovering female addicts in Desert Hot Springs, CA.Problem is that I really do not know how to go about getting this started also I will need some financial help.Any help or information someone can give me concerning this would be greatly appreciated.

 

Thank you,

Elizabeth De La Rosa

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Kent D.   in reply to SysBot   on

Aidpage group discussing "recovery"...

Nov 21, 2009

Heard about this in treatment, wondering whats its all about.

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lovingmommy  

searching for free or extremely low cost counseling and family therapy

Sep 9, 2009

i have come to the realization that I need to attend counseling. i have had a rough childhood and am faced with many issues in my life. i want to be a great mom, good student and valued employee and think that counseling can help me in organizing all aspectes of my life. i think that gaining knowledge about who you are and why you behave in certain ways is an important step in recovery. i currently see a christian counselor that i like, but it's so expensive. with my new medical affliction I am expecting to have some extreme medical bills. there will be no more money for counseling, but i think i will need it now more than ever. if anyone is aware of free or low cost therapy or family counseling services or resources please post information here. Thanks. 

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scleland  

About scleland

Aug 3, 2009

I am a recovered alcoholic and addict for approximately two years now.  I am rather poorly off in the money and credit areas of my life, and I'm looking to get back into school and switch my major from International Relations to addiction or substance abuse counseling.  Are there grants for people in recovery to study these things?  Please I really could use someone's assistance.

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cfeldscher  

About cfeldscher

Apr 25, 2009

i am a 47 year old recovering meth addict. i have not smiled for over 20 years. i do not have any way to pay  to get my teeth fixed and would like to be able to smile. i have 9 months clean and just need some help with getting my smile back. is there anyone out there that can help?

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Anonymous  

Inside the mind of a meth addict...

Mar 12, 2009

Most people here know me enough to know I have a zero tolerance policy when it comes to drugs and alcohol. I've lived with it for most of my life and I know the devastation and destruction that follows in its wake. While I am not completely innocent - I have done my share of dumb stuff when I was younger - I have learned from my mistakes before they became a real problem. Some people are not as lucky.

I know kids will make mistakes - it is a part of growing up, it is to be expected. But when that mistake becomes an all consuming part of your life, then it is time to do something about it. 

That is what meth is. An all consuming drug that will destroy your life. It doesn't matter who you are, or where you come from, all you need is one taste and you are hooked. One try is all it takes to ruin a lifetime. Now I don't know what the statistics are and I am sure crack is right up there with meth-just as addictive and just as  deadly - but I don't want to sit here and preach and I KNOW you don't want to hear it from me. So why not listen to the people who know what they are talking about? 

I fund a site "CRYSTAL DARKNESS" which sheds even more light on the the topic and even has a forum to post. One in particular I found was equally fascinating, and repugnant, was the blog for recovering meth users. I'm sure you will too.....

 

Crystal Darkness 

 

GET HELP FOR METH ADDICTION 

 

In my search I also found other sites:

Julie's story  - about crack addiction

real life stories about drug abuse - including ritalin (kiddie cocaine)

recovery site - for addicts, families and friends 

living with an alcoholic - while some of it is religious based - there is some good information in this article... 

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Gary25  

During rough Times and your Emotions

Mar 3, 2009

The first lesson in managing emotions is to understand that emotions are inner feelings that arise and that there is nothing right or wrong about them. It is not right to be judgmental about even negative feelings. Emotions have to be differentiated from feelings, moods and disposition. Feelings are subjective and do not take into account the objective reality. Disposition refers to a durable and differentiating characteristic of a person. Mood is an emotional state somewhere between an emotion and a disposition. 

Psychologically, emotions are complex responses of the nervous system, negative as well as positive, to external or internal stimuli. They are also considered to be a cognitive process. A brain that lacks emotions is considered to be incomplete. Dealing with your emotions and managing them is an essential constituent of social life. A willingness to give them a positive direction can help you in becoming a better person.
 
The primary step towards managing emotions is to learn how to deal with stress. Moderate levels of stress are good since it motivates and challenges. But stress that builds up and reaches intolerable levels can affect performance at work places and health. Normally I would drink

Understanding other people’s emotions (something we can't due is change people, places or things) helps in dealing with emotions. It is however essential to understand your own emotions as well. There is an old saying, “count till ten before you get angry”. That counting is actually meant to let you think and identify the reason behind the anger. How does this effect me

Try to find what your feelings mean. If you are in fear, try to find ways that will make you feel safe. If you are sad, identify the cause and look for ways to comfort yourself. You may need help from a friend or your sponser and group or a counselor. 
If you are angry, identify the cause and fix it. Your anger could be due to another issue or an earlier bad experience. Go directly to the person you are angry with and try to settle the issue. This becomes easy if you try to understand the other person’s point of view. Or else, try arguing with you own self to see if it really matters.
If you are happy, make the most of it without getting complacent of your duties. At the same time mark the situation so that you can recreate it.

Being aware of the emotions that you are undergoing and the reasons behind those emotions can help you control it. Express your feelings to someone you trust and you may get a completely opposite assessment of the situation. The underlying idea is to evaluate emotions before they get the better of you. If you can redirect your emotion to a positive one, you may find that what you were contemplating was futile and unjustified. Emotions are strong feelings that take place within the mind and can be influenced by individual bias. Objectivity and a positive mental attitude are actually the best ways of managing emotions.I have given you a link to ask some experts to help you along.
 
 
Gary 

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Gary25  

I'M new here and hope I can help and maybe be helped

Mar 2, 2009

Hi, My name is Gary Marquis,I'm looking to rebuild my life after a long bout with the alcoholism curse.I'm in recovery after 30 years of drinking, sometimes I tied to quit or slow down but this curse is real.I was a hard worker by day ,holding a supervisory position for an electrical contractor.The curse really took over and I lost my Job.I had a beautiful house,cars,Family.But my wife got into drugs,and spent the money I had saved.She also took my annuity and pension after the divorce.I was hoping to find some help or pointed in the right direction to get what I need to rebuild everything I once had for myself and my daughter and son.I'm new here and don't really know what to do.

Thank you for reading this

Gary 

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recoverynurse  

About recoverynurse

Feb 7, 2009

I am a recovering alcoholic/addict and mother of four. After getting sober, I obtained an Associate Degree in nursing and am now a nurse on a chemical dependence unit. I love my job as I now help others that are in the same position that I used to be in. I feel that getting an education played a large part in my recovery and can also help others. I would like to obtain a BSN and hopefully eventually a Masters so that I can help people in early recovery have the chance to obtain their education and make a difference in their lives. At this time, however, I am unable to afford the costs. If anyone knows of anything available to single mothers, please let me know.

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concerned gf  

Arg! Addicts

Jan 4, 2009

I'm venting... before my b/f and i got together i didn't really believe in addicts... yes people can get addicted.. but not addicted to everything... drugs, sex, other women, gambling! We'll i've been proved wrong and i don't feel like you can blaim a "disease" for being a crappy boyfriend. I goto Alanon... anything better out there to deal with these wonderful people called addicts.

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Sacramento Resource Directory  

The Sacramento Resource Directory - OneFathersLove.com

Jan 4, 2009

The Sacramento Resource Directory updates the entire database each year. Far too often people post health information on webpages and do not make sure the content is accurate and current. This creates a greater frustration to those needing help. We call each resource annually, and when we cannot reach someone by phone, then one of us go to the resource and confirm the information.

If you are seeking assistance with the County of Sacramento, then please use the database>> online to locate the resources you need. If you want to call in, please feel free to use the information in the Contact Us>> page. On weekends and holidays a HIPAA Advanced Certified volunteer working from home will answer or return your call.

If you are someone posting information on AidPage about health services in Sacramento, then please update your content for accuracy because we have heard to many concerns about health information that is outdated and incomplete.

Updated January 2012. Below are some of 36 categories in health and Community Services Programs within Sacramento, CA.

Rental Assistance

Emergency Shelters

 Utility AssistanceHousing ProgramsFurniture Resources 

Food Closet/Hot Meals Sacramento area Emergency Food locations and Free Meals. 

Subsidized/Free Daycare  Directory of Sacramento subsidized Child Care, Daycare and Pre-schools. The  listings  below  provide  Sacramento county subsidized, low cost or sliding scale fee based childcare and pre-school. 

Marriage workshops and Single/Family Parenting  Provides Single and Family Parenting Resources including free marriage workshops for the Sacramento, CA. area. 

Free Parenting Classes CPS/Family Court accepted Directory of free Sacramento parenting classes. 

Fathers Resources Fathers and Dad's Sacramento community resources for parenting, activities, workshops and legal assistance.  

Special Needs/Disability  Sacramento Special Needs Education and Disability resources. 

Mental Health  Sacramento community Mental Health services information and programs. 

Ex-Offenders Directory of Sacramento ex-offender jobs, legal and other re-entry services.   

·                      Use the ~Print option to have your own free and updated resource book for use at work, home, church or wherever people need help.

 

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recover  

Does anyone ever get better?

Dec 4, 2008
Do you have a recovery story (good or Bad) I would like to here it.
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recover  

About recover

Dec 2, 2008

I am here to help and be helped. I am currently an unemployed Peer Support Spectalist with a lot of resoures and ideas. I raised  3 childreen and have 7 Grand childreen. In phx az Been their done that with the best of them. There is always an out, help.  Dont loose hope.

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